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I’ve found it hard to post my usual posts lately, the ones about creating happiness, about the joys of art, writing and such, knowing, as we all do, about the pain, anguish and atrocities going on out there in the world. So I just wanted to take a moment to acknowledge. These are severe times in many ways. Talking about painting seems somehow trite.

Yet we go back to our Facebook pages and homework and poetry writing and “what’s for dinner” because what’s out there is all too ugly to mentally sustain ~ and what the hell would we do anyway? Aren’t there Leaders to handle this kind of thing? Sadly, I see no leaders…. and then a troubling cycle of thought threatens to ensue, poised on all the madness.

The thing is, when it comes to the Really Big Stuff in the world, it’s as though I simply can’t process it fully. I can feel horrified. I can feel disgust. I can feel really, really disturbed. But I can’t fully engage. Maybe it’s a form of self-preservation – as if to think on it too hard and long, to dwell, is too intense an exercise. A debilitating merry-go-round of worry and fear. Contemplating ruined lives and sabotaged events is too heavy a weight.

Is it my artistic temperament? My sensitivity that can’t handle it? I’ll think, “but am I turning the other cheek?” Am I uncaring, or selfishly absorbed in “my own little world”? “Shouldn’t I be doing something?” Is it some kind of cosmic guilt, a tripped-up compassionate pulse that I should enjoy a good meal while thousands of people across the globe struggle in unthinkable situations? That I landed where I did in this life, and they did not?

But I always come back to 2 things: 1.)  an eternal optimism I seem to have been born with (or maybe it was nurtured in, or both) and 2.) maybe I can do something and maybe I am doing something, even if it’s not measurably touching the great mass of humanity… by taking care of my corner, and spread light there. Because that’s what I feel I can do.

I was raised to believe (and I do believe) that it really does matter what you do in your own little corner of the world. (And this belief, you may already know, was the basis of my 52 Weeks of Peace book / series. It’s about what we can do as individuals, right here and right now. And if we all did…)

Fretting and stewing about world events, the disgraces of humanity that exist, the evil-doers, the lies and deceit and manipulation, is unproductive for me personally; nor does it serve anyone. It’s way bigger than me, and to go there with too much prolonged fervor only makes me feel powerless to help, filling a space with negativity and projecting dread where there could be light ~ and I operate SO MUCH BETTER from a place of light.

And God knows we need more light in this world.

When it comes to fretting and stewing about my own place in the world, or how the bills get paid and other earthly challenges we all face at one time or another, the same thing applies – I operate SO MUCH BETTER from a place of light.

Oh believe me, (and I know I’ve said this before and probably will again) I can worry like the best of them, but at some point I return to some sort of peace ~ because I have to. As if I’m wired that way. To have faith. In life. In love. In light. It’s my call to arms.

After years of practice, it’s almost become a type of daily surrender. Trusting. And so far, unless I’m deluding myself, it feels like the right course of action. We’ll see how it goes…  Yes, I’ll continue to write and paint and share thoughts on happiness, because what is life without upliftment? ~ but in the meantime, for what it’s worth, my heart sends waves of hope to those in far greater need.

Patricia Saxton

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  • Kristin Louise

    September 18, 2014 at 4:02 pm Reply

    oh Pat, the world so desperately needs those of us who have a sense of the ‘light’ and all it represents to us to continue beating our drum, despite the noise of war and deceit. To be cognisant of the drama and trauma is important, but we must hold the line in our hearts. And bring the essence of ourselves forward in courage. You do this every waking moment 🙂 xxx

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 18, 2014 at 5:54 pm Reply

      Great minds… in fact, I was just thinking the very same phrase – “beating the drum”, in this case, of love, light, peace, beauty, gratitude, humor…. Thank you for your warm and thoughtful words, Kristin! xoxo

  • MarketingMichele

    September 18, 2014 at 12:22 pm Reply

    Beautiful… you described it much like I see it or trust now, too. With lots of practice it really does become second nature sometimes. Thanks.

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 18, 2014 at 5:55 pm Reply

      You are so welcome ~ I’m just so glad to have touched a chord, somehow putting a voice to what many of us feel, it seems. Thank you, Michele.

  • Billy Mack

    September 18, 2014 at 7:41 am Reply

    Love and light will always guide and protect —–kindness and compassion will always be stronger than any other force—-positive and optimistic thinking will always direct a mind in true direction—thank you for sharing your soul—a beautiful soul that helps to illuminate many other souls along this path of life—-may you continue to share as you do—I for one find peace in your efforts—-thank you —namaste….

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 18, 2014 at 8:24 am Reply

      Thank you, Billy. Your words both ring true and mean much to me ~ I am full of gratitude for your sharing! Blessings to you.

  • Rand MacIvor

    September 17, 2014 at 8:09 pm Reply

    Keeping positive in an overwhelmingly negative scenario is the true test of strength for an individual. This is a lesson I’ve learned up close over the past three years. Never let that compulsion go, Patricia. And if you find yourself slipping, give me a shout.

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 17, 2014 at 10:09 pm Reply

      Yes you have ~ and I thank you Rand for your unwavering support and shared positivity all these years! I know where to shout if needed. <3

  • Stephanie Keilholtz

    September 17, 2014 at 7:42 pm Reply

    Thank you for these inspiring words. .Warm Hugs & Happy Blessings to you.

    Rockville, MD

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 17, 2014 at 10:09 pm Reply

      Brightest blessings right back to you, Stephanie!

  • almudenanido

    September 17, 2014 at 4:17 pm Reply

    Great words. We can only trust life itself and surrender to hope. otherwise our pessimistic thoughts may drown us further down.

    • Patricia Saxton

      September 17, 2014 at 10:12 pm Reply

      Well said! Thank you for sharing your thoughts as well – yes, trust and surrender!

  • Debbie

    September 17, 2014 at 4:06 pm Reply

    Wonderfully written my dear friend and I totally feel the same. x

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